Turning Over A New Leaf

I wasn't sure if I wanted to start a new blog or to continue with this one. I read the posts I've written for the past 2 years. They were all so superficial, so much sugar coating I wasn't sure who was writing them -_- I guess I was more honest a few years ago. Oh well, I think I'll probably revert to my high school writing style: JUST SAY IT. 

I revamped the site with colours. I needed the change, I've been too...structured. It has been an awful 2012 and awful first few months of my 2013. I was so depressed that I went on treatment for two months. I was told that I needed high level of serotonin to function. The meds kept me going for a while but it also made me drowsy and stoic. So I turn to my old best friend - cheese and chocolate. Dairy products make me happy <3 div="">

"I fucking hate you. Damn you! Shit la you!" 

Three short sentences which changed my life. It hurt real deep and the pain and scar will stay forever. I guess I will not truly move in without coming to term with this incident. I was dumped via a phone call.  For two months I almost died from low self-esteem, I felt ugly, dirty, worthless and useless. Nevertheless, I was not stupid. I reached out for help and slowly, painfully, I recover. I'm still in the process of healing. I've decided to pick up my life where I left it 3 years ago. I opened up a little and tell myself to do what makes me happy, I don't need to please anyone anymore especially people who cannot accept me for who I am.

I'm no longer a pious Christian but occasionally I whisper a prayer for I don't know what. I'm thankful for a few good friends who supported me through the opening of my shop in March till today. I've met many people ever since. Some beautiful people who showed me rainbows in life and yes, i meet arses too. All in all, I still love my current career. Yes, it's a career for me. Not just a day to day job. I may not have a DR/SN/IR or whatever title to my name now but I got goals in life and I want to achieve it.

Right, warming up on first post. Will move on and write more on life stories and hopefully, interesting stories for read. Okay, let's give God a little credit :3

1. Thank God for awesome friend like Ps. Yu Li - hugs!
2. Thank God for boardgames and RPGs on Friday - meet new amazing people!
3. Thank God for the gifts. Yes, all that I can do right now...sew, craft, perform, my ideas...I give credit  to Him. He is my muse, no joke. He moves my hands and makes me learn.
4. Thank God for mom. She has been tolerating my shyt a lot yet helped a lot with my work. She is awesome yo when it comes to hairdo.

The world can give up on you but you live on so long you dont give up on yourself. Signing out for tonight, cheers~

Ever since I have so little time to blog, I began to summarize my writings in the form of FB shoutouts on daily basis. It has been 3 months since I'm out of practice. Surprisingly, I miss practicing but no, I'm not turning back. I hated the environment. It has been exciting and equally frustrating over the past few months. Setting up my own business has been something new and the process is really...eye opening. It shows me the so many ugly sides of human. Friends become frenemies, family ties went sour, some crappy relatives showed disapproval from such a high pay job to a 'toy shop'. Malaysians need more exposure to the word haberdashery. People whom I get in touch with for supply, renovation and import were 98% con man. They bully and cheat because they think I'm just a little girl without a daddy or a buff man by my side. I've raised my voice and quarrel with a few of them. It tires me a lot to have to scream and shout to protect my right. 

Oh yes, do I need to mention that the people at the licensing office were rude and totally unprofessional about their job? In the midst of processing an application, talk about lunch, talk about somebody's husband, gossip about the cleaner's wife. Dilly dally bla bla bla. 

Nevertheless the highlight is definitely our Mr Firefighter who apparently approved my licence and then decided not to approve it and asked me to see him in private so he can write a nice report. Explained to him that the building obtained CF and I've obtained my license AND I don't have the key to the shop yet. But NO, he wants to see the shop NOW NOW NOW I GIB U WAN HOUR, U COME. Called me daily and insisted that I go see him even when I'm in Thailand. He threw a tantrum saying he will never allow me to set up my business because I was rude to him. He told us he can simply pull back our license by saying our shop don't have a back door. Encik Kopi, back door tu I yang buat ke konstuktor yang buat? Kalau tak pass dari awal-awal, CF tu camne dapat? Kalau you tak pass lesen saya, sila gantung lesen semua business kat sini pasal semua kedai takde pintu belakang. I presented facts and he said, 'eh you jangan kasar sama I'. The shyt they always say when they have nothing else to say in the face of truth.

Asides from the negative experience. Meet some new people, supportive people. I learned many things too. The elderly told me that I need to bend my principles in business. Most of the time we have to smile and close one eye. I do take my work seriously, always have been. But I'll never bend to make allowance for manipulative people to take advantages from me or my family. If I kena saman, I pay. If I have done nothing wrong, please don't come ask money from me because you are wearing some gawd damn uniform. This place is corrupted enough. It's a tough start and I foresee more of those nonsense people to come but hey, I've made my choice and I'll stick to it. I have been doing things I dislike all along. Time to do something I truly love. So yup, look forward to the launching end of this month~

Costurera Haberdashery!

It's finally up. A month of travelling to collect goods, snap pictures, upload, snap pictures, upload, import some more stuff and whoala! Costurera Haberdashery is up! The idea behind this whole costurera thing is to provide custom make costumes, accessories and props for various occasion including cosplay. Asides that, I intend to sell nice and some rare items for art craft. It is not only cater for my fellow cosplayers but also for those who love making accessories and other art crafts. 

They are all ready stocks, available via delivery (1-3 working days) or COD at Mid Valley. The advantages of buying ready stocks is that you will get what you see. There won't be the hassle of delayed shipping, wrong size/colour/model from delivery errors ;)

The items we have at the moment:

Feathers: https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.471065096268461.99732.434198336621804&type=3

PVC leathers: https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.474200809288223.100236.434198336621804&type=3

Rubber Foams: https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.474200809288223.100236.434198336621804&type=3

Gloves: https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.474160329292271.100224.434198336621804&type=3

Stockings: https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.474162829292021.100225.434198336621804&type=3

Cosplay Wigs: https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.476613689046935.100684.434198336621804&type=3

Ribbons and Lace: https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.474924302549207.100409.434198336621804&type=3

Pannier: https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.474189145956056.100232.434198336621804&type=3

Gems: https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.474936782547959.100412.434198336621804&type=3

Bells: https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.474880372553600.100406.434198336621804&type=3

Pendants and ornament pieces: https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.434439106597727.91050.434198336621804&type=3

Official page for the haberdashery: https://www.facebook.com/theunseenrealm.costura

Starting ANeW.

Well...abandoned this blog for about 3 months now. 2012 coming to an end, 2013 approaching and...another year older =.=" I had a bad year. I left Msia beginning of this year hoping to find a new life, an adult life with much freedom AND responsibility. Leaving home wasn't tough. Surviving it was the killer. Ain't gonna dwell into the details but as a conclusion, I had a really bad year with very little emotional support. 

Anyway, I've already left whatever sad stuff that I needed to leave behind and plan for the hopefully, better days to come. I'll be opening my own haberdashery, offering materials, wigs, props and costume sewing services not only to cosplayers but also to craft enthusiasts :) I know it ain't gonna be as much as me working in SG but hey, it's time to do something I like for a change. Watched a video that made me cry. Some said it's stupid, some said 'you're brave' and some, 'you can because you are young'. I can because I have few but supportive people back here that believe in me <3 all="all" be="be" contained="contained" cosplay="cosplay" emo="emo" ersonal="ersonal" here="here" i="i" ll="ll" meanwhile="meanwhile" much="much" nbsp="nbsp" non-cosplay="non-cosplay" p="p" page="page" shifting="shifting" stuff=".=" the="the" too="too">

https://www.facebook.com/pages/Venus/111065779054931?ref=hl. Feel free to leave a message if you have any materials to request ;) cheers~

Taking A Long Break

Hmm...it must have been forever since I update this blog. I think I've got too much to handle ever since I left Msia. Work, study, costume making, meeting deadlines, tiresome shifts, running a cosplay ball and all. Sometimes bring 400km away from home and close friends, makes me feel so alone. No lonely kind of alone but I'm-on-my-own kind of alone. Sometimes just feel so tired and wanted to fall back on someone close but nobody is around. On and off I do feel really down. The only thing which took my mind off things is to work on my costumes and props. Progress is slow though since I'm hand sewing my costumes now and that I'm always exhausted from work. I can't recall much after Umi Ryuuzaki cosplay. So just a latest update on my two new projects :) attended Animangaki and glad to have the opportunity to hang out a bit. Miss you guys lots! Hugs!

Chobit: Freya

Photo Credit: Razrig

More pictures: Freya

Tiger & Bunny: Blue Rose

Photo Credit: Anthony Lee (Blur)

 More pictures here: Pepsi Nex

Magic Knight Rayeart: Umi Ryuuzaki

Another project completed in Singapore without my faithful sewing machine. Nevertheless, this cosplay focused a lot on body props. It took me three weeks to get it done, juggling between depressing work and self study. I definitely love the way it turned out but the mechanism of the costumes still needs lots of improvement.

Kuroshitsuji: Grell Sutcliff

Okay...this is totally expired. My first crossplay (probably the last), shot in January something. Hand sewn the entire costume in Singapore. It took me one whole week to get it done. Honest to self, I ain't the material for crossplay but what the heck, I still lurve Grell! Thanks Anthony Lee for putting up with me for this shoot.

It wasn't a good day to begin with since it rained when we reached the park. My wig was all...orz.